Snow by XXXTENTACION (original lyrics)

I see, black skies, and white lies, I'd rather be
Dead, filling my head with different enemies
Thoughts consuming me, fueling my insecurities
As the ground right under me crumbles as if it wasn't there
It's too much, my heart's crushed, I'm not alive
I won't allow myself happiness 'cause it's all lies
I've seen the pain, I've run away so many times
Death and I are companions, it's here at all times
I won't love, won't trust, I won't die
I can't feel, but managed to steal your heart love
Was dirt poor, now fuck whores and want love
It seems that anything offered could be enough but
As time, body falls
Don't know, who to call
Alone, and my heart, got tat
Of it broke
I'm so fucking numb, my life has succumb
To hatred and death, alone
In the snow